gift

i have a gift and it's my bestfriend
thank you.
i don't have the ability to say how much
i'm thankful for her.for god.i still want to get amnesia
but i don't want to erase her from my mind
and the others.
i think my point maybe is :
i want to be a better person i want to stop killing people
and killing time.i want to be a bulletproof,i want to go home.

i;m so thankful
thank you,

i love you :'(

hello!
hello screen.i'm so lonely i don't know why.
but i don't want to go on the messengers.

i'm so pathethic i could laugh at myself right now.because i was so pathethic.maybe you don't know.now i know why girls in school,laughed at me.calling me names.because i AM pathethic.i'm a loser.i can't get things right.i'm wasting my money every second i typed this.i got economical problems and everyone thinks i have everything.i'm greedy.i am greedy! everyone too! oh hell! turkey! douchebags! nuthead! i don't know what to say! i hate everyone i hate myself! i want to be someone else.please give me amnesia!

then i will be a brand new person! i won't lie.i won't lie i won't
i won't lie to my personal rainbows.i won't be a dumbass i won't be lazy i won't be calling names and gossiping i won't have a crush at every boys i won't sit here n front of the computer and wasting my parent's money.i won't do it all! i'll erase myself.and i will receive jesus as my saviour from the first place.i'll be a butterfly.i won't be weird.it's okay if i'm not talented anymore.i just want to have a normal life..

i just want a normal life.
i wan't a rewind button.i need the eraser.
i want a normal life like everyone else.i want a life.get a life marsz! please.even myself said that to me.i'm a douche bag.that whores in school are better than me.they had a life.a normal one.they're not dreadful and full of sin like me.i am.they are far better than me.even emos are better from me.everyone is better! why i have a friend? that's the question.i still have a lot to say.but i guess i'll stop now.
please forget me :)

darn people on facebook will be seeing this since i subscribed this from blogspot!
it's okay tho.i want them to laugh at me hahahaha..haha..! what a sad day! :))

xox
marszha
p.s:
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look at thom's old hair! isn't that so scene-boys type? haha sorry i don't have anything to do anymore so..yeah bye

yeah,i know i'm a loser.today i went to jibc and i can't talk,yes i can't talk! i can't talk english to them but i tought i was so good! i was so good at english.nobody beats me in english test.at least in my class.but i can't talk.and i felt like a complete weirdo.i wish i was mexican.i wish i was japanese.or phillipians or whatever! but at least god let me breath until now.choke me with foods.that's a parabole.but i felt like a complete weirdo and a loser too.i feel very ashamed.

really.i really did.i know i'm not rich or whatsoever so i'm not very fond of joining those kids.okay sorry i'm too emotional right now.mani wish anyone would understand this.but i know.i know jesus understand.i'm trying to work at that statement.i wish something could happen.

marsz

hello blogspot!

i will start with a warm yellow hello! we are the pixels in the screen
greetings to you all! greetings.you can't attack us no no :)
so i'm here to talk about miley cyrus again! like in my multiply
no no okay i'm just playing around.

this will be on my facebook so.
i don't know what to talk about *sigh*
i play a retard game.i buy it because the main character
looks like previous gerard way! yes gerard way
strawberry shortcake! anyone?
but i don't like her that much i love lemon meringue!
she's cute :)

xoxo
marsz